Ocean Castaway’s Lament

On this lonesome ocean

With its clashing waves that make me sick

I am the castawy’ed

10’s or 100’s bottle messages

No answer ever returned

The rain was sparse – the fish were few

No bird has yet blessed my sight

I get sicker day by day

I prayed to god

I swear, I tried

No answer ever returned

To simply let go

Be washed into sea

But the body was not broken

The mind not shattered enough

Memories invade me now

And like the waves, they rise and fall

I can’t know if they are true

For much has slipped of what I know

I wish for a storm

Now more than ever before

A storm to batter and smite

This me stranding rescue boat

No answer ever returned

Now no more clashing waves

The sea is silenced

Not even wind does touch me

On the skin only this hot scorching sun

So I curse woe unto this fiery and blinding star

Until I miss it like a mother

When night does struck

And million others take its place

But they’re cold and distant

There is no beauty in this firmament

I scream therefore to the heavens

With what little I have left

‘O you stars that watch me’

I cry

‘How could this you entertain

When all hope is lost

And you twinkle and never stop’

Sleep now is not sleep at all

Dreams went from bad to worse

Now that the body don’t let me

My mind is screaming

Nightmarish horrendous landscapes

Creations of a mad god now bother me

Me and god

There is no other…

No other being but me

So I am god

God

Hunger

Pain

Thirst

Worst of all

I close my eyes

Alas they open and look around

Boundless the water is stretched

In all directions